I Love Surprises!

I LOVE surprises! (For the most part). Take last night for example. I got off work really late and it was a bad day at work yesterday so I was not in a good mood when I got off work. Well, anyway, my brother needed my car today so he dropped me off at my house since I'm off work today. When I got home, I walked in the door and there, talking to my roommate is Jason! Now for those who don't know who Jason is, he is one of my very, very good friends. He lives in Washington D.C. so I don't get to see him all that often. He's here because he has to do an investigation in Wichita (he's FBI). So we spent all night talking. And this morning I got up at 4am to do my regular excersize routine. Since I didn't feel like going to the gym this morning I just ran a few miles since its so nice outside and the bike trail and river are right by the house. Well Jason came along since he runs a few miles every day. I totally showed him up and he was out of breath way before I was even thinking of being out of breath! I was pretty excited. See he's Army trained and has to stay in shape since he works the homiced unit at the FBI so it takes a lot for him to get tired so I was on top of the world. He was impressed but doesn't think I'll be able to do it again tomorrow... I'll show him!
I am so happy he's here. I can't wait until he gets back; I'm going to take him to Hillsboro tonight to meet some of my friends before I tell my brothers that he is here. He and my brothers get along great so whenever he's here I wait a few days to tell the that he's here because I never get to see him when my brothers find out, they always monopolize his time. Oh well, at least they don't hate him and is always threatening him like some of my other past boyfriends.
Like I said at the begining, I LOVE surprises and it has made my day pretty good. So I hope your day is great and I'll catch ya on the flip side;-p

Nobody Seems to Get It

You know, I try to be patient and I keep on trying but no matter how long I wait and no matter what I do I still can't get a job. I have been trying to get a nanny job for a year now. And nothing. I have had a few hopefuls but as of late no one seems to want me. Its not as though I don't have experience. I have had lots of experience. I don't know what it is. Maybe I'm trying too hard or maybe not enough but whatever it is I want this waiting process to be over and me to have a good job! A job that doesn't stress me out so much and I can stop going to bed crying at night because my life is so stressfull and nobody seems to get it. Don't get me wrong, being here with my brothers is great and I get to see my nieces and nephews all the time but man, I just keep thinking this wasn't what was supposed to happen.
I know people get tired of my complaining, even I'm getting tired of my complaining, but what am I supposed to do that I haven't already done?
I have been to every business around here looking for a job so its not just nanny jobs I'm looking for. I'll take anything at this point. I know I haven't had that much experience in the job market and employers look at my nanny experience and they go, "Oh you've never had a job before", and so they pass over me. I mean come on! Child care is just about every job out there. There's cooking, cleaning, organization, chauffering, there's child care itself, there's time managment, record keeping, doctoring, you name it and I've done it. So why can't people see that? I'm starting to think that this world is very biased. If you have job experience in the "real world" then you can have a job but if your resume incldes nanny or child care then you haven't worked at all.
I don't get it and I probably never will but I guess I have to keep on going and keep on trying.

Changes

Okay, so some of you may or may not know but since October I have been a red head. Yes, I dyed my hair red. I let my friend who is a student at the Sidney hair salon school here in Kansas dye and ct my hair hair because no one else would let her come near them. Now I loved being a red head and Nicole did an awesome job. However, I have been missing my blonde hair so she dyed it back to blonde for me. Either this week or next new I'm going to have it cut. I don't know whether it will be drastic or not but I want something to show off the new me. I haven't felt or looked this good in ages and I hope that this is a step towards being a new me. A me that I can be proud of and not be too shy to let anyone in. A me that can get a new job that doesn't stress me out. A me that I will love and not hide.

An Update

All right its been a few weeks since I've posted and I just thought that i might share some of what's been going on. Since the whole diagnosis I have undergone some major changes in my life. I have cut all processed sugars (even the less than 2% in certain items). This has taken a small toll in my wallet but if its going to help me then I'll keep it up. I have continued to excersize for an hour and do another hour of yoga every morning. This has helped me to lose a lot of weight (no complaints on that part). I have gotten past my plataue of a certain size. I have never been able to get smaller than a size 16 jean size. I have gone past that all the way down to a size 12 and I am super excited about that! I have stalled a little bit but that just tells me I need to change up my routine a little.
I have had trouble still trying to get stress out of my life. A lot of it is my boss causing me to not be able to yell at him for blaming stuff that he got in trouble for on me, but that's a whole 'nother story. I have been working a lot of over-time lately because our assistant manager is on maternatiy leave and the manager is out for surgery which means I'm the only other cook left and so I get a lot of hours. Its good for my pay check but bad for my stress levels. Just a couple more weeks of that though.
The one thing that keeps me going is knowing that the second weekend in April is pretty big for me. I get to go home for the weekend and I am sooooooooo excited for that. I miss everyone back home! Yes its true. I'm going to be leaving here the 9th after I get off work and then drive up to Iowa with my brother (long story on that part), and I will be there for the 10th, 11th, and come back here the 12th. So if you want to see me then you should totally let me know!
I better go, life goes on and I have a job interview in the morning before I head off to my current job (fingers crossed I get this one). So you guys have fun, enjoy life and what it has to offer.
I'll catch ya on the Flip side;-)